This day was not a great day, but thank God it’s almost over.
It started off well enough – I woke up around 9am and wrote a blog post. So far, so good! Then I wrote some emails and took care of a few things on my to-do list, including opening some mail, including a credit card bill. Yesterday, by the way, I got my final paycheck from the job I just quit – and guess which dollar amount was bigger? That’s right, the credit card bill. It was then that I had a WTF moment where I started worrying about money, which naturally escalated into worrying about my entire future from this point forward. I’m really good at going to extremes. Whereas the past two days I felt really good about my decision to quit, now… well, it seems the unemployment honeymoon is over.
It was around then that I got a huge craving for cereal. HUGE craving, bigger than most cravings I get, and for a food that I don’t eat that often. I haven’t eaten cereal since the beginning of June, when my sister and nephew came to town, and I bought a box of something (I’m blanking on what kind) for my nephew Sam to have for breakfast. I hadn’t eaten yet today (not smart), and since I already had some milk in the fridge, I thought, I’ll get some cereal from the mini-mart across the street. That was mistake #1. Mistake #2? I ate the whole box. Of Froot Loops. And did the stupid kiddie puzzles on the back of the box. Ugh. Which led to instant regret and depression, on top of job-related existing depression (see paragraph 1), which, naturally, led to a 3-hour nap on my couch.
Proud to say that I woke up ready to get back on track. Depression? Over. Oh, how I hoped that eating over a thousand calories in Froot Loops was somehow a dream, but it wasn’t. But time to move past that, too. I ate 2 small plums, grabbed my water bottle and a towel, and took off to Latin Jam class. This is a class I started taking a month ago with my cousin Macrae, although she wasn’t able to come tonight. It’s an intense dance aerobics class that kicks my ass every single week, and I love it. Here’s a video of the type of stuff that we do:
When I got home, I decided I must have a good food day tomorrow, and so I planned everything out to avoid temptation. Here’s what I’ll be eating:
I’ll break it down:
- Breakfast: 5 oz nonfat Greek yogurt (the container is 6 oz, but I used some in the wrap I made the other day); 1 plum (that I’ll cut up and mix with the yogurt); 1 packet instant oatmeal
- Lunch: raw broccoli florets; 2 hard-boiled egg whites; 1 orange
- Dinner: Salad (cabbage, cucumber, cherry tomatoes, 1 tbsp capers, roasted red peppers, 2 tbsp soy bacon bits; sprouted mung beans and wheatberries; 2 tsp non-fat sesame soy ginger dressing)
- Snack: 1 apple
I’m also taking a step class tomorrow morning. It’ll be my third ever step class, and the first time I’ve gone in about 2 months. Looking forward!
Keep it up, David! (Not the cereal binge part)